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Sheryl Sherris Lam. Seventeen. Life might not be the party you had hoped for, but since you're here, you might as well dance. |
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Tuesday, June 22, 2010 / 6:22 AM
I wont change anymore. Promise!!!!
Indecisive
Saturday, June 19, 2010 / 3:02 AM
No fear no doubt, I’ll provide the answerYes, shout with me "KNN, This Sheryl ah, change here change there like fun only!" ROFLOLZ. Im still in love with blogger. Haha. I cant seems to understand the other site's functions and all. Kinda preety confusing.
Cancerians- Refuse to change. Hard to adapt. (Y)
So yea, life's pretty much going up slope, and I like how Im busying myself with stuffs and events and everything. All I need super badly now is a job ($$$$$) and new shoes! Im tired of wearing flip flops, especially when you attend some places where flip flops aint allowed. And then Im left with only my heels (killer 5inches and 4inches) or a damn cute sneakers, with a hole at the bottom sole. Wear it out when it rains and thats it. And oh, my clens are coming soon!!! Holy guys up there heard my prayers and my clens are arriving BEFORE my bird day. Ahahaha. So I can enjoy my day without irritated eyes. Seriously, irritated eyes are big turn offs. Poof.
School's starting in two days time. And I just barely started my projects ytd. There are two to be handed in on Monday. Im so gna die man. I might as well hang myself upside down outta the window now. Plus, there's so many distractions on the net and I can barely focus, thus the little work done. Gotta finish up this post and... have dinner first. Hiak Hiak. And then pull up my socks, buckles and whatsoever and drill it on projects!
Oh dear, how I hate projects.
Cancerians- Refuse to change. Hard to adapt. (Y)
So yea, life's pretty much going up slope, and I like how Im busying myself with stuffs and events and everything. All I need super badly now is a job ($$$$$) and new shoes! Im tired of wearing flip flops, especially when you attend some places where flip flops aint allowed. And then Im left with only my heels (killer 5inches and 4inches) or a damn cute sneakers, with a hole at the bottom sole. Wear it out when it rains and thats it. And oh, my clens are coming soon!!! Holy guys up there heard my prayers and my clens are arriving BEFORE my bird day. Ahahaha. So I can enjoy my day without irritated eyes. Seriously, irritated eyes are big turn offs. Poof.
School's starting in two days time. And I just barely started my projects ytd. There are two to be handed in on Monday. Im so gna die man. I might as well hang myself upside down outta the window now. Plus, there's so many distractions on the net and I can barely focus, thus the little work done. Gotta finish up this post and... have dinner first. Hiak Hiak. And then pull up my socks, buckles and whatsoever and drill it on projects!
Oh dear, how I hate projects.
Dearest Lao aunty Looney Teng:The parcel and pieces of my life, you tainted very film. Every movie of my life, you had a role. There inside, somewhere. Everywhere. Its been a long journey, we went thru every stupiest things. Its like they have said, we are a soul, separated by reincarnation.
Its been a upside down period. Fuxk the weather that had this crazy impact on me. Im going thru this "moments" of my life and I started acting all bitchy and basket and all. I vent it on you. Tantrums. Never ending. I sulk all the time and do all stuffs to anger you. its like sometimes we humans are blinded that very moment by anger. I was. I saw everything from my point of view, I refused to do otherwise. I wanted things, everything to go according to MY plans. I expected you to go along too. I was being selfish. I neglected everything. I was so occupied by me, myself. I neglected you. Your feelings.
I shut away from your explanation. I accused without listening. i jumped into conclusions.
"People (me) with mole on either side of the neck, it indicates an unreasonable temperament. "
Okay lousy excuse.
Okay lousy excuse.
"Im ignorant, I act rash when things dont go my way. I rant pretty much, but that's because i care about it. Because i anticipate it much. And when they dont go my way i got disappointed and start acting like a kid. But that's because a care." -- now that's better. Haha.
But whatever, Looney, you do know how high up you are in my heart right? Im sorry for being sucha fruitbasket, but ahhh... I know you forgive me. HeeHee.
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Humans always thought themselves as sobers.
Saturday, June 12, 2010 / 12:42 PM
So does i.Its way pass midnight. Way pass the normal sleeping time. The world is asleep, snoring away- smiling to a unrealistic dream, struggling from a fearful nightmare. Here i am. Here we are. Opposite from the normals, from them, all of them. Does it make us abnormals?
The thoughts kept coming. From the left. The right. Everywhere. Every directions. Blended scotch whiskey in my veins. Me, tipping my head to and fro. Muscles relaxed- swaying. Laughing out to myself, but way bitter inside. Deep inside. The fears were back. I miss you, alot, so much. The differences that kept us apart. What was this? Fate? The last time i saw this word it says- Fate, its a pain in the ass. Why is it that the journey seems so... Difficult. Is it? Like in reality? Do you feel or think the way i did? Or did my insecurities get the better of me?
I hold up the head that kept falling back. Its working, the alcohol. But, im thinking so much at this very moment. I hope nothing changed. Be there to remind me of the things i purposely forget. I often thought back to the first night dated four months back. And as i analysis, so much changed. We have adapted to the change. Or so i thought. I accepted things that i control in life, but you cant stop a person from wishing they can go back to the past. Even if wishes dont come true, it a bless to dream of it at times.
There was those times the nights were forever young. And arendaline flooded every vessel. Every inch. The pulse, naughty. I Wna see your smile. From the bottom of your heart. That smile. Oh yes that smile. Ask me silly questions.
Holding up the head again, and letting it fall back. Just as much as i hate the heavy head feeling, i love it. Drunkards irks me and the fear of being one some day. Its ironic. Just like the above passage- one by a less awake mind, one that's infested.
It's like i dont really know what im conveying. It all comes in a blur, or a blurt. Like a heavy traffic with way too much cars wanting to pass. I might reread it someday and ponder. It might be
Hello Wello.
Thursday, June 10, 2010 / 2:39 AM
Tmr's a series of events with my Looney Marcaroni. Oh god, its been so long since Im here anticipating with life. With something happening. Sorry Looney if Im overly hyper. Haha, you know me. More fleas are coming!!! Life, come back to mama alright. Will blog once I have something, probably after tmr, after of shoots. Yea, bear bear eye am yo!
When I look at you.
Saturday, June 5, 2010 / 10:32 PM
Everybody needs inspiration,
Everybody needs a soul.
A beautiful melody,
When the night's are long.
Cause there is no guarantee,
That this life is easy.
And when my world is falling apart.
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore.
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When I look at you,
I see forgiveness,
I see the truth.
You love me for who I am,
Like the stars hold the moon,
Right there where they belong.
and I know im not alone.
Yeah when my world is falling apart,
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
You, appear just like a dream to me.
Just like kaleidoscope colors,
That cover me,
All I need,
Every breath that I breathe,
Don't you know you're beautiful!
Yeah
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
I look at you, Yeah, Woah.
You, appear just like a dream to me.
You know Im never good at expressing myself out. But you do know the words I wna say right? My heartfelt words. Im still learning, still trying, never stopping. And Im glad you had faith in me, to acknowledge my efforts, even if there aint even a slight improvement, even when I still bring loads of disappointments.
There are nights where I lie in bed alone. Cant get to sleep. Listening to the songs which you claim tends to make you sleep (But I like!). I thought through the journey, every little bits and pieces that happened. Every little detail. I list out our differences. And as the time goes by, the list gets longer, never ending. And as I lay analyzing all these characteristics that tells us apart, I had these thoughts. Maybe... we dont click. Maybe its a wrong formula that's gna back fire. Maybe. Maybe. And more maybes. I went on further and spin out all the endings that will happen. All bad. That when I get my hysterical moments and start saying all the "weird" things which I later will list as "Im sleep talking".
But thank you. Thank you for having stupid explanations to calm my nerves.
There are nights where I lie in bed alone. Cant get to sleep. Listening to the songs which you claim tends to make you sleep (But I like!). I thought through the journey, every little bits and pieces that happened. Every little detail. I list out our differences. And as the time goes by, the list gets longer, never ending. And as I lay analyzing all these characteristics that tells us apart, I had these thoughts. Maybe... we dont click. Maybe its a wrong formula that's gna back fire. Maybe. Maybe. And more maybes. I went on further and spin out all the endings that will happen. All bad. That when I get my hysterical moments and start saying all the "weird" things which I later will list as "Im sleep talking".
But thank you. Thank you for having stupid explanations to calm my nerves.
"We are different, that's why we can fit in to the differences of one another.
Like for example you dno A but I know A, and I dno B but you know B, then I can teach you A, you can teach me B."
Like for example you dno A but I know A, and I dno B but you know B, then I can teach you A, you can teach me B."
Hahahahaha. I have to admit there are times Im kinda awed at how your brain function. You can make all the nonsenses sounds like fact. Haha. (But I still hate it when you beat me in an argument.)
And Im sorry I still act like a little girl. Im ignorant. I fell asleep when we are a middle of a text. I couldnt accompany you at times you wanted me to. I was late 45mins on that particular day. I talk back. I poke fun at the generation gap issue. I "TSK" back at you when you hate it because I thought it was funny. I make fun of your chinese. I ask you to shut up cause Im loosing in an argument. BlahBlahBlah.
You made me laugh at occasions and there are times I recalled a certain joke you said before and I started laughing to myself, which tends to freak you out, you gave me the puzzled face and ask whats so funny. Now that made me laugh even harder. But then you freak me out too with sudden attacks even a Shinobi cant handle. (But that doesnt make me a lousy Shinobi okay! You didnt proceed to read out your NRIC number first) What if your sudden attacks goes haywire because I was too freaked out? Like maybe I fell into the MRT track ytd because I was shock and kick you, and you lose control and I fell in and the MRT train just came and... OKAY, I THINK TOO MUCH. But you get what I mean huh? You wont know how to explain to my mum I tell you!
And quit snatching my phone and switching all my favourite songs to yours when Im halfway singing through it. Like Im getting into the "When I look at you" emotions and you switch it to "Solo". Tsk. Haha.
There are so much more I wna write, but, ah... it might take days. Haha. But overall you get what I mean yo? And lastly, here's your favourite words.
Aishiteru, I Love You. WeiWei. Ahahahahahahaha.
And Im sorry I still act like a little girl. Im ignorant. I fell asleep when we are a middle of a text. I couldnt accompany you at times you wanted me to. I was late 45mins on that particular day. I talk back. I poke fun at the generation gap issue. I "TSK" back at you when you hate it because I thought it was funny. I make fun of your chinese. I ask you to shut up cause Im loosing in an argument. BlahBlahBlah.
You made me laugh at occasions and there are times I recalled a certain joke you said before and I started laughing to myself, which tends to freak you out, you gave me the puzzled face and ask whats so funny. Now that made me laugh even harder. But then you freak me out too with sudden attacks even a Shinobi cant handle. (But that doesnt make me a lousy Shinobi okay! You didnt proceed to read out your NRIC number first) What if your sudden attacks goes haywire because I was too freaked out? Like maybe I fell into the MRT track ytd because I was shock and kick you, and you lose control and I fell in and the MRT train just came and... OKAY, I THINK TOO MUCH. But you get what I mean huh? You wont know how to explain to my mum I tell you!
And quit snatching my phone and switching all my favourite songs to yours when Im halfway singing through it. Like Im getting into the "When I look at you" emotions and you switch it to "Solo". Tsk. Haha.
There are so much more I wna write, but, ah... it might take days. Haha. But overall you get what I mean yo? And lastly, here's your favourite words.
Aishiteru, I Love You. WeiWei. Ahahahahahahaha.
When the waves are flooding the shore.
/ 9:42 PM
Its been 5days in a row that I have experienced the 11:11 phenomenon (Correct word choice?). And there are days I get to experience it twice a day. So... what do I mean by that? Well, I know it sounds stupid but there are random times I was maybe studying/ just jamming songs or even sleeping. Then I have this sudden urge to check the time. Just this... feeling. And when I unlock my phone, TADA! the time shows 11:11. Haha. And to speak the truth I didnt constantly check my phone to catch it like some of you will say it as okay. It just... happens. I still gets a shock now even after so many occasions. You could totally see me eyes bulging, mouth open and freezing and staring at my phone screen. Even up till now. No joke.Its the holidays now and the first thing on my to-do list is to pick my lazy bones off my comfort zone and head down to the library to return that one book still sleeping on my desk. Yes, be awed-- Its one month over-due. I hope the fine aint too hard on me. Haha. But anyways, since its the hols, I guess I wna pick up my hobby for reading again. Its been ages since I always hook up in my bedroom for days just to finish a couple of lovely written novels. Oh, how I miss those days. Haha. I remember myself as that bookworm who swims around the libraries. Those good O'days. Haha
Every second breath
Thursday, June 3, 2010 / 2:42 AM
Looney is nagging me to study cause Im bugging her bout multiple quotes I have picked up from movies/ song lyrics or just randomly thought it up. She's gotta concentrate on her studies and I always have this way of luring her to the darkside with me. Best part is she always got over unknowingly. Hahahaha.CSA's tmr and I have yet to study the 230pages bout spare parts of CPU, different hard discs, mouses, printers andwhatsoeverfuckohfuck. Like hello? Im in Business studies Group. I should be studying bout Business, Logistics and Operation and Marketing- not learning how to "not-die" if my CPU explode there parts out some day. Its seriously insane. Do they think that we will go out and create a business oneday without a technician? We gotta study what we have to study, and not cramp all bullcraps in our brains. Sooner or later they will get business students to study how to tame animals. Fuxk.
And talking bout papers, I totally screw my accounts paper today. Thanks to myself for thinking Im so smart I can dont study. Was drooling over Victoria Secret's angels with YiZhen on the phone ytd bout their lovely angel faces, and endless legs. Gaa, I know I sound like some lesbian on the run but Im not okay. I just love to study and observe hot babes. Like seriously. Then I wonder, do guys actually gather around and comment how hot other guys look? Okay, that's seriously gay. Haha. Slacked the whole day ytd and everything went wrong today. I even woke up late. Darn, and was in the room taking my test with an empty stomach. I end up wrapping it up, not bothered to double check and spend the rest of the time staring at my bubblegum green nails. I guess... Bye bye to my Z grade, and hopefully an A grade. I gotta at lest have one A right?
Off to date my CSA textbook. ZOMG. 230 pages with ants wording and I haven start even one letter. And my notes are filled with blanks. Thanks again o myself for skipping lectures. FuxkOhFuxk. Gotta study till I fell asleep on my desk again. Hang in there Sheryl, Holidays starts tmr.
*Instant boost! Ciaos.